Thank you very much Losha for creating a platform where we can connect with each other, no matter where we live on this planet. I believe that it is important that we are able to share our journey in life, because to be honest it can really feel lonely to go through our emotions.
In 1986 after giving birth to our second daughter I went through the most terrifying nightmare (a Post Natal Depression) living in anxiety and depression for nearly 20 years. It could disappear for a period of time but somehow it would always return, and I couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me. It was in a time that only a few people would stand by my side, and I actually could understand the point of view of others who couldn’t deal with my problems: ‘How on earth can you feel so miserable after giving birth to a child’?
My life felt like a rollercoaster day and night and the emotions of guilt, grief, frustration etc were felt deeply but the most intense emotion was the feeling of shame.
I was living two lives: ‘One side of me lived in this nightmare of surviving and the other side of me tried to cope with every day life 'as normal as possible''.
I also knew that I needed to find my own way out of these circumstances because taking medication wasn’t an option for me. To make a very long story short, after nearly 20 years I totally recovered through Holistic Healing. Somewhere deep inside of me I always knew that hormones were the cause of all these terrible feelings but there is little known about the effects of a dysfunctional hormone system, and that it may feel that you are going completely crazy.
I recovered with natural hormones, Bach Remedies and a lot of other essences and talking/writing about all the frustrations. I felt a lot of anger because it took me 20 years of my life to figure out what was really going on inside of me. On this journey I met beautiful people who were sincerely interested in me as a person.
February 2020 a dear friend of mine died of lung cancer. A week later I became ill for seven weeks. I had pneumonia and I had to take 3 different types of antibiotics to recover from the infection. Unfortunately the last antibiotics triggered my hormones once again and it felt like hell once more.
I was in shock that after many years of feeling great the nightmare returned. It took me nearly a year of healing (the same Holistic Healing) as before but I also had two sessions of distance healing with Illeana (Messages from a Star Traveler) to recover. When I digested these emotions again I learned via social media that many, many people went through their old traumas once more, but on a deeper level, diving deeper and deeper into their feelings. Knowing that many other people were going through their own painful experiences really helped me to try to accept these circumstances.
I totally agree with the wise words of JFK through Losha, that every illness starts with emotions, and before we can go to the next level in life we need to heal these emotions and accept every part of our being and try to go to the root cause.
When we are able to share our experiences on a platform, it may help us to accept ourselves because we can relate to the emotions each and every one of us seem to go through. It can also open our Hearts, eyes and minds to look at our problems from a different perspective and we may find different solutions.
When you look at our individual life journeys, I really believe that every single human being is a hero!!! Every time we fall, we seem to get back on our feet because we hang on to our dear life. It also helped me to never use the word ‘setback’ when we seem to digest old emotions but actually we should see it as 'growing pains’. Each time we become more of ourselves, especially in the times we are in right now.
In this moment of time we are expanding ourselves more than ever, creating a completely different life with the help of a very special Divine Plan. Does that mean that I always feel bliss? Oh no, I am still learning every single day!
I hope that my story may help others, to let them know that we are such beautiful beings
and we deserve to live a life in freedom, letting go of our mental/emotional/psychological and physical chains forever!!! Lia (I live in the Netherlands)