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Thanks for sharing. I am 54 years old and the middle child of two brothers. My dad was a chronic alcoholic and my parents married at 19 and 21. My mom provided us with necessities but never spoke of alcoholism. In college, my dad fell down our stairs and could have bled to death. My mom called 911 after talking to my older brother and filed for divorce afterward. I was side blinded and never connected that my dad was a chronic alcoholic. My memories had been suppressed. My dad had been in at least 10 different treatment centers during my child hood. I would come home after school and he was passed out on the kitchen floor. I remember going to my aunts for the weekend or my grandparents for a week but was never told why. One of my college roommates had a mother who who a chronic alcoholic and I started going to ADOC ( Adult children of Alcoholics) with her. Awakening begun! Once I begun my career in the legal field, I met paralegals and continued ACOA classes with a client friend. The ACOA meetings included professionals - I was shocked and continued my healing. However, I married an addict and divorced after 17 years. During my broken marriage, we attended marriage counseling and I re woke to my past and connected that I married an addict. But together, our lives brought 2 beautiful daughters, they have been the center of my life. During my divorce, I was given the BEST ADIVCE as I sat in church, next to neighbor. She said, " I have been through hardship and you need to prioritize. First, God. Second, Rhonda (me). Third, my girls who were 13 and 11. Because God will take care of me and I need to take care of me to take care of my girls.. I have been divorced for 10 years and focused on my girls. Sydney graduated from ISU in May 2020 and Lillie will graduate Dec 2021. I am very proud and feeling confident in my choices and role modeling. God Bless! I am grateful for finding you!

Losha, thank you for allowing me to share. I will be as brief as possible, glancing over my various chapters. In the spring of 1994 I began a sort of immersion into the ethereal I'd never experienced, eg, too many coincidences, not least with the appearance of symbols, phrases, and numbers 7, 26, and 34, especially, and my birthday is 7/7/67 which I was always somewhat spiritual about (raised Catholic believer). I began to sense a oneness, so I bugged God for an explanation...starting with What Do the Numbers Mean?? "Okay, tough guy!" I was driving in the fast lane of a packed, speeding group of cars on Interstate 40 in St. Louis (notoriously aggressive). Note that I had been a competitive race driver, karts etc. Out of nowhere, four cars ahead slams on his breaks for no reason. The two cars directly behind immediately swerved and almost crashed, while the guy ahead of me--now just behind the stopped culprit--locked up and barely stopped. I was able to stop safely quickly because of my training, plus I had a nimble Acura with manual transmission. Just then I look in my rear view mirror to see a Jeep Grand Cherokee getting bigger, sideways. I intuitively [yeah, right] found a gear and moved to the left onto the shoulder lane. The Cherokee stopped inches away from the car that had been in front of me with the driver and passenger facing me. They looked at me as if they saw a ghost...me too. I looked down and my odometer read 77,777.7. I pulled over at the next exit still in a bit of shock and the first display at the entry of the gas station had license plates that said "God is my co-pilot". Point taken. Uncle. Shortly after on 6/17/94, the Emperor of Japan visited the St. Louis Arch Riverfront, and a Japanese man interviewed that morning on the NBC local news said, "I know if I am at the Arch today, I will go to Heaven." Okay, I'll play...it resonated greatly. The day was surreal, almost like a treasure hunt, and I ended up at the Old Cathedral, by myself, and a homeless guy came it asking for money. Honestly it felt like a cosmic candid camera, so I gave him everything I had, not knowing how I would make it home (that's how this program works sometimes, apparently). I had been very worried about OJ Simpson, and as the guy left, I said "Come back", although I wasn't really saying it to him, if I may: I was speaking the words toward OJ Simpson since he had fled that morning. The guy stopped, acting stunned, and said... "I think a miracle just happened here". I can't know, but that evening got weird, for sure. In 1999 I was a business leader in Enterprise-class Internet commerce and was recruited by people I won't name, but all of you know their work, I'm sure. They had the potential of building an Amazon Web Services (AWS) - like model using $100M from an agency you'd all recognize...and I was to write the business plan. In my months-long deep dive to become the next Ross Perot / Bill Gates gazillionaire, it became evident even back then that: 1) those who ran IT as a utility could turn off users--or the whole thing--anytime they wanted; 2) the only upside to binary tabulator networks is the ability to disseminate info [see #1], otherwise it is a barrier [read: prison] to our trinary construct and our ability to commune by, with, and through the Holy Spirit as designed. So I quit...they weren't happy. Try explaining to a layperson in 2000 that "computers" are "bad" because we're trinary. It didn't go well for me. In 2016 I began a multi-thousand hour dive into Neville Goddard. Briefly, he filled in the parts of The Law that were missing from the Bible and, more important, spoke of The Promise to eventually be delivered from this terrestrial world of death, ie, "die" for the last time before truly advancing. I didn't accept this. I had gathered that this soul recycling/ restoration/ reincarnation system was being used in bad faith...this upset me, if true. I suspect this construct may have been disabled since then, but I can't know for sure yet. Bottom line, throughout each of these timeframes, I was CERTAIN that a great war between good and evil was being played out, and each time I believed there would be a positive resolution. There wasn't. There was only persecution and worse from family and friends to whom I tried to explain. It would take me a while to find "normal", and I swore each time, like a bad hangover, that I would never, ever fall for some crazy notions that everything is connected and we are all locked in a battle of Good vs. Evil. And then I started studying Q in late November. Aaaarrgh!!! While many are impatient and new to Godly games, I am not...for good or bad. I just have to constantly force myself to validate until this is all made public. Wanna talk about getting the last laugh? Until this current declass flood, I had not had the benefit of memes and articles to illustrate this, let alone prove it. I just...knew. Each episode felt like a movie. Now, I have cried wolf so many times nobody wants to hear a word from me about Q or otherwise. The fact that it is likely coming to Righteous resolution is a feeling I cannot describe. Thank you again for letting me share. All the best. Mike

Thank you very much Losha for creating a platform where we can connect with each other, no matter where we live on this planet. I believe that it is important that we are able to share our journey in life, because to be honest it can really feel lonely to go through our emotions. In 1986 after giving birth to our second daughter I went through the most terrifying nightmare (a Post Natal Depression) living in anxiety and depression for nearly 20 years. It could disappear for a period of time but somehow it would always return, and I couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me. It was in a time that only a few people would stand by my side, and I actually could understand the point of view of others who couldn’t deal with my problems: ‘How on earth can you feel so miserable after giving birth to a child’? My life felt like a rollercoaster day and night and the emotions of guilt, grief, frustration etc were felt deeply but the most intense emotion was the feeling of shame. I was living two lives: ‘One side of me lived in this nightmare of surviving and the other side of me tried to cope with every day life 'as normal as possible''. I also knew that I needed to find my own way out of these circumstances because taking medication wasn’t an option for me. To make a very long story short, after nearly 20 years I totally recovered through Holistic Healing. Somewhere deep inside of me I always knew that hormones were the cause of all these terrible feelings but there is little known about the effects of a dysfunctional hormone system, and that it may feel that you are going completely crazy. I recovered with natural hormones, Bach Remedies and a lot of other essences and talking/writing about all the frustrations. I felt a lot of anger because it took me 20 years of my life to figure out what was really going on inside of me. On this journey I met beautiful people who were sincerely interested in me as a person. February 2020 a dear friend of mine died of lung cancer. A week later I became ill for seven weeks. I had pneumonia and I had to take 3 different types of antibiotics to recover from the infection. Unfortunately the last antibiotics triggered my hormones once again and it felt like hell once more. I was in shock that after many years of feeling great the nightmare returned. It took me nearly a year of healing (the same Holistic Healing) as before but I also had two sessions of distance healing with Illeana (Messages from a Star Traveler) to recover. When I digested these emotions again I learned via social media that many, many people went through their old traumas once more, but on a deeper level, diving deeper and deeper into their feelings. Knowing that many other people were going through their own painful experiences really helped me to try to accept these circumstances. I totally agree with the wise words of JFK through Losha, that every illness starts with emotions, and before we can go to the next level in life we need to heal these emotions and accept every part of our being and try to go to the root cause. When we are able to share our experiences on a platform, it may help us to accept ourselves because we can relate to the emotions each and every one of us seem to go through. It can also open our Hearts, eyes and minds to look at our problems from a different perspective and we may find different solutions. When you look at our individual life journeys, I really believe that every single human being is a hero!!! Every time we fall, we seem to get back on our feet because we hang on to our dear life. It also helped me to never use the word ‘setback’ when we seem to digest old emotions but actually we should see it as 'growing pains’. Each time we become more of ourselves, especially in the times we are in right now. In this moment of time we are expanding ourselves more than ever, creating a completely different life with the help of a very special Divine Plan. Does that mean that I always feel bliss? Oh no, I am still learning every single day! I hope that my story may help others, to let them know that we are such beautiful beings and we deserve to live a life in freedom, letting go of our mental/emotional/psychological and physical chains forever!!! Lia (I live in the Netherlands)